Suicidal Dilemma

I believe suicide is the most idiotic thing someone could do... It's the act of a coward, an outlet for depression.......
The truth is there are a million other alternatives to let out your depression, killing yourself???? that's foolish!!!!
Ever wondered what the mindset of someone on the verge of suicide is????


Suicidal Dilemma

Where is courage? My heart in abandonment,
Where is love? This world has put me through merciless torment!
Where are they, who said beside me present they always will be?
Here today when neck embraces rope, and from this world I shall be free

My fingers in a quiver, rest unknown to them,
In a minute my neck shall crack like a thin young stem.
A drop of sweat electrifies my spine,
A voice in my head, “Everything will be fine”.

Daddy where are you? Have I let you down?
Mother I love you, was I the reason you always frowned?
Father in heaven, your son is returning,
From this world of sin that has my soul burning.

Those who found joy in all my sorrow,
Shall rejoice in this moment and my funeral tomorrow.
What am I doing? Dad? Mum?
Would they celebrate my act with a glass of rum?

Never before have I sought refuge in a rope,
But now it feels so friendly, for with this world I cannot cope.
A cowardly act, all refer to this,
But there’s so much behind it that they all miss!

One last time, I intoxicate myself with the grass of heaven,
And recollect the times I’ve done the same, seventy times seven!
The end is near and my heart is conquered by fear,
My breath fades…. somewhere in the distance. Weeping? Tears?